My dear sweet Big Love. RIP. 2006-2011.
So, as some of you may have heard me mention, one of my favorite shows ended tonight. I’ve watched Big Love since before Season 3 premiered. I can remember it all very clearly:
I was in my freshman year of college (which I bombed so I don’t care to refer back to and as far as I’m concerned 2009-2010 was my freshman year of college, BUT I DIGRESS). It was still early in 2009, before Season 3 had begun airing so it was January, maybe. Maybe not. Actually, this might have still been in December of 2008. At the time, I was really obsessed with Hot Pockets and TGI Fridays frozen quesadillas. So I would come home from school, load up some streams of some Big Love episodes and eat lunch while I watched.
Actually maybe it was February 09. It has a very nostalgic place in my heart because when I started watching it, I also started becoming friends with one of my best friends so “God Only Knows” by the Beach Boys always makes me :’)
I’ve had my ups and downs with this show! Last season was a MESS. A fucking MESS. But this season has been so good and tearful. I just wish Wanda was around. I miss her so much. I would’ve liked to get reacquainted with my favorite characters before the show ended!
Some notes about tonight’s episode:
I was crying so much in the car with Margie and Barb and Nicki. That music playing, the wind in their hair, they were trying so hard to be carefree but all that stress was still there! When Margie was admiring Barb and when Barb locked eyes with Nicki in the rearview mirror! I couldn’t handle it! SUCH a beautiful moment. And when Margie said for Barb to just pick Bill up and have them all drive on forever without stopping. Ugh. </3
When the neighbor (his name escapes me) confronted Bill in the front yard, I knew what was coming but I didn’t expect it! But there was no good way for that scene to end anyway! Lois had just died so Bill was either going to drive to her and find her dead or he was going to die himself in that scene. So when we’re inside with the wives and the gunshots came from outside, my blood seriously ran cold. And then the tears didn’t stop.
I would’ve liked more closure in the jump forward 11 months. Like, where’s Adaleen? Where the fuck did Adaleen go? I LOVE ADALEEN, WHAT HAPPENS TO ADALEEN? I’m assuming Ben and whats-her-face got married because of their wedding bands and I understand all of that. But they could’ve given the jump ahead more time to tie up more ends. Or make the episode longer.
But let me tell you… when that remake of God Only Knows started playing… I knew what it was with the first few chords… I started FULL ON UGLY CRYING. Oh man. I couldn’t stop. My mom was laughing at me and I was like STOP IT, I’M IN MOURNING.
I’ll miss Barb, Margie, Nicki, Adaleen, Alby, Sarah, Wanda, Lois, Frank and even Bill so much. In that order haha.
BYE BIG LOVE! WHO WILL FILL YOUR VOID IN MY HEART?